Friday, December 29

couldn't get to sleep last night.
watched my girl till 6.30 in the morning.

he totally occupied my mind i guess.
er muo is out again.
giving me setbacks and more setbacks.
tis time, it made me cry.
right on the spot.

called manda,
totally forgotten that she's working.
as usual, she was consoling me and stuffs.
thanks manda. (:

hmmph,
how isit possible to fall in love with someone whom you've never seen him/her before?
that's a good questions thou.
but i've never experience such theoretical stuff.
so i guess, only he knows the answer.
if that question is being shoot back to me,
i'll probably say, love at first sight?

this should make me see double tonight. (:
my sweetest tempations. (:

everything you've done simply shows me 1 thing.
that you are just trying to exacerbate me further.
i don't wanna be fascinated in any news of yours animore.
you will only bring sorrows and unlimited tears.
i've manage to found out who is she.
she's slim.
she's pretty.
she has straight hair.
fits you totally to the T.
i guess, there's no need for further elaboration.
cause i find no need to care,
when you don't even care.
trust me, i'm trying very hard.
trying very hard to forget someone like you.

what we could have been, 12/29/2006 01:13:00 AM.

Wednesday, December 27

heard news abt the cutting of internet connections.
due to the taiwan earthquake.
i wasn't affected yet.
and i'm crossing my fingers.
because i'll probably die w/o internet. (:

had mos burger for lunch again.
in 2 consecutive days.
went for interview at tanjong pagar.
but i dun tink the job suits us.
met manda at town AGAIN.
and went tangs to asked abt jobs.

some guy caught my attention.
he RAN AWAY from us not once,
but THRICE.
but afterall, he's quite handsome thou. (:
with that cool cool look and wide smile. (:

alright,
i better publish my post before the connection got cut.
if there's no problem with it tml,
den i'll blog again. (:
cya everyone.

try to recalled what was the last present you gave me.
and link it back to the one i gave you for christmas.
get the link?
there some things which shld be kept unsaid.
i will only say it when my REAL er muo is back.

what we could have been, 12/27/2006 10:29:00 PM.

how i wished i had nothing to do with you at all.
but i can't change certain facts and unwind time.
i hate waking up at 5am in the morning.
with cold sweats drenching me.
seriously, you mutilated* my life.
why isit that you can live so happily w/o worries.
while i have to face these nightmares.
i hate you. seriously.

what we could have been, 12/27/2006 03:21:00 AM.

out with manda and bong today.
lots of slacking with bong at mos burger.
had her milk tea and my peach tea. (:
manda was late due to the heavy rain.
she was stucked somewhere. -.-

met manda at her work place.
gossiping and bitching abt someone unfriendly.
very hostile indeed.

tried some tops at her shop.
shared dressing room with bong.
but just LUP on us.
had a GREAT laugh inside the changing room. (:
eyed on a top,
looks quite nice on me,
but it's goddamn SGD$75.
someone buy for me pls. POUTS.

saw mygirl working so hard,
making me feel so bad.
i tink i shld get my ass off and get a job,
instead of sitting here almost 10hrs a day.
and i need some income too. (:

before going off,
manda gave both of us a BIG hug.
LOVES.
i know she misses us alot.

before i go off,
some photos taken today. (:

interview at 2pm tml. (:
wish me luck.

dun ever name yourself as er muo.
my er muo isn't like this.
i do not wan you to be that er muo.
my er muo doesn't lie.
my er muo LOVES me lots.
my er muo doesn't take everything as a joke.
my er muo is just so different from you.
~~"er muo will come back to you eventually."~~
i dun wanna hear that sentence from you ever again.
not even once.

what we could have been, 12/27/2006 01:34:00 AM.

Tuesday, December 26

going out with manda and bong tml.

and i am very sure i'll come back with LOTS of <33.

gotten my camera ready,

for those funny and exaggerate acts manda does.

and also to capture our wide smiles. :D

plans for tml -

mos burger milk tea;

chit-chatting;

catching up-s;

smiling;

being MADwomens;

SHOPPING! (((:

weets.

has been so long since i met both of them.

and i simply miss them. (:

can't wait for tml.

and not to be unfair,

MISS TEY LEE PENG.

where the hell are you?

where are your swimming trips?

where are your meet ups?

ring me asap and lets chat thru out the whole night. (:

get your butt here now,

cuz i miss you badly.

dun bother to look into my eyes.

dun bother to kiss me.

dun bother to hug me.

dun bother to protect me like how you used to.

dun bother to hold my hands.

dun bother to let me lean on you.

dun bother to sweet talk.

just dun bother.

since none of them are from your heart.

den dun bother.

dun lie and make me look like a big fool,

thinking that everything you've done is true.

i just HATE your lies.

what we could have been, 12/26/2006 02:50:00 AM.

Monday, December 25

MERRY CHRISTMAS! (:

time flies.

christmas is here again.

i guess everyone is having fun outside bahs.

countdown-ing.

spraying foams.

wacking bagalas. =\

admiring beautiful lightings.

screaming and HIGH-ing with friends.

and of cuz, being hugged by bf/gf. (:

but this year,

although i choose to spend my christmas alone,

and not outside where people are like canned sardines.

but i'm still very happy.

cuz spending more time alone makes me reflects on mani things.

and that's how all my goals came about.

and this christmas,

it's quite a special christmas.

cuz i've received the best present ever.

but i'm not gonna yank abt it like nobody's business.

and for this year's christmas wish.

hmmph,

i got one in mind.

i'm sure my loved ones will be VERY glad that i finally decided on this path.

and tis time round,

no more hesitating.

no more turning back.

and no more being foolish to believe in him.

i'm half-way there. (:

oh ya,

i'm looking for a box.

anyone knows where to get it?

i need a huge one i guess.

there's so much to put in.

lil twin stars, letters, flowers, photos, stuffs.

and definately,

the love for him.

alright,

i better catch some sleep.

and wake up EARLY tml.

year 2007 is just ahead.

which means i'm gonna be old soon.

and i dun wanna waste any of my youth. (:

made some plans,

stay tuned for my new image. (:

^with LOVE, zy.

what we could have been, 12/25/2006 03:15:00 AM.

Sunday, December 24

couldn't get to sleep last night.
cried all the way from 10pm - 5am.
resulting in a big pair of puffy eyes.
kinda silly last night.
planned to buy alcohol and make myself drunk.
for once.
and also in order to make myself fall asleep.
but in the end,
realised i'm still underage to buy myself alcohol. -.-

christmas eve today.
i didn't went out to countdown.
need more courage in order to face that complicated world.
or shld i rather say,
no one asked me out. (:

sorted out everything.
he will be my BEST friend forever. (:
and i mean forever.
no more thoughts of him.
just a best friend that understands me very well,
and vice versa.

i guess, thats the best way out.
aniway, he suggest that i shld grab some nice guy.
so, TATAS.
nice guys out there, here i am. (:

what we could have been, 12/24/2006 10:01:00 PM.

Saturday, December 23

telling myself everything is just my illusions.
and nothing happen yst.
every since last night,
i've been bursting my own bubble.
and now i guess,
i shld forget abt everything.
and just take it as i've been into a dream.
a good one thou. (:

and i finally found out the truth.
i was right. (:
although my bubble did burst eventually,
but i really had fun yst.
one of my happiest day in my life for sure. (:

i get everything now.
pls take care, my best friend.
dun worry abt me..
i'll be okay after few hrs of crying. (:

what we could have been, 12/23/2006 07:10:00 PM.

couldn't get to sleep.
just msg-ed him.
i duno what's wrong with me.
it seems that i've gotten into that hole again.
suddenly, i've became so dependent on him again.
anticipating smses and calls from him.
i know i shldn't do this.
but i just couldn't help it.

do you know...
how much i wanted to msg you a "i miss you" when you replied me back just now.
how much i wanted you to hug me that tight and hope that we will never get to reach tampines mrt.
how badly i'm missing your smell right now.
how badly i wanna hear those stuffs you whispered into my ears.

what we could have been, 12/23/2006 02:06:00 AM.

Friday, December 22

i'm back yst.

back from malaysia.

my nose will grow longer if i say i didn't miss him at all.

reached sg at ard 10.

had dinner with family.

and good news readers,

i'm back blogging. (:

last night, he msged me.

asking me out today.

to catch a movie.

curse of the golden flower.

and i agreed.

humph, there's lots of things that happened today.

and i dun wanna elaborate on somewhere open.

but in conclusion, i'm in a dilemma now.

how i wish the whole world will just stop for 10 mins,

give me some private time to think abt everything.

i dun wanna make ani wrong choice again.

dimpleBOY;

i duno whether it's true tis time.

i duno whether you are true tis time.

there's alot of dilemma in my mind.

to move on or to stay put.

today is the happiest day in this whole month.

and you shld know how wide i smiled today.

but actually, lots of stuffs are running thru my mind.

even during the movie, i'm still thinking of it.

remember i asked you abt the distance to orchard mrt?

actually i wanted to walk all the way there with you.

just the both of us.

but, i guess i shld be contented.

with you sending me home and those sweet things you've done. (:

it's 1.30am now.

and i'm waiting for you to give me a call.

on the other hand also thinking of taking the initiative.

i guess i've fallen into it again.

what we could have been, 12/22/2006 11:03:00 PM.

Monday, December 4

hmmph.
readers, i wun be online for quite a long time.
because my internet access has some prob.

and definately,
i miss mygirls.
i miss mydearest.
i miss myprecious.
i miss my japanese rockstar.
i miss my dimpleBOY.

and i feel so outdated cuz i'm so far away from everyone. :(
hmmph. pouts.

aniway,
i went for job hunting with bong today.
and wth.
we went..
tampines mall,
century square,
east point,
white sands,
paya lebar,
parkway parade.

and basically,
our legs went aching. -.-
although we wore sneakers,
but as we try to prevent some incidents,
we walked with my hands on our skirt.
tightly.

basically,
looking for a job is damn hard.
and we totally can feel how it's like to be jobless. =\
hmmph.
please bless that we will get that job. (:

more job interviews tml!
and i'm very sure tml will be better. (:

dimpleBOY;
i hope you're doing very well now.
i hope you will get a job very soon.
please be more patience;
in whatever you do;
even though that lil pup of yours irrates you.
be more calm;
even when your mom is screaming at her top of her lungs.
smile wider;
so that even your strict dad will smile from side to side.
set your aircon to at least 20 degrees.
and kick that 18 degrees bad habit of yours.
remember to cover your blanket.
dun catch a cold.
learn how to tidy your messy cupboard;
dun rely too much on your mom.
dun bring the whole bottle of water into your room.
it isn't healthy to drink over night water.
dun eat too much kfc.
you'll fall sick very easily after that.
keep your lips wet always.
tearing of dry lips makes you go crazy.
try not to blast music when you sleep.
it's not very healthy.
dun spend too much time on jamming.
be careful of your own health.
pls sleep well.
dun put on a strong brave even when you are very sleepy.
reduce the no. of riding.
you always come back with bruises everywhere.

hmmph.
perhaps thats only how much i understand you.
but no matter what,
thanks for everything in the past.
i guess, tis time,
i'm really bidding you goodbye.
i might be still holding on.
but it really depends.
just remember,
SMILE; my dimpleBOY. (:
ilu.

what we could have been, 12/04/2006 11:18:00 PM.

Friday, December 1

uper tired after editing those photos.
i'm totally worn out.
eyelids closing any moment.
its 4.30am now.
and i tink i shld catch some sleep.
and continue everything again tml.

before i go to bed.
i tink i shld blog abt today.
to reduce my burden.
hmmph. (:

we went TM today.
had pizza hut for lunch.
played arcade. (:
guess we were too overaged,
we used up all our tokens in less than 10 mins. =some window shopping after that.
went to buy some christmas gifts.
for 3 important ppl. (:

my miss vivien ng spotted that lil twin star thingy.
and i bought it immediately. (:
i LOVE it so much. (:
although it's just the packaging.
it's purely biscuits inside btw.

aniway, i saw dimpleboy today.
dragged vivien crossed the road.
trying to avoid any eye contact.
was screaming like some mad women after crossing the road.
images flashed thru.
and miss vivien ng was nagging and nagging at me.
asking me to think of other things.
but not him.
pouts.

you've changed.
on the outside, and in the inside.
but too me, you just stood out from the crowd.
just like how colorful you are to me.
compared to my black and white world.
i dun wan any more "just nice" in this world anymore.
i rather be blind for today.
so if that's the case, i wun be brooding abt it now.
keep that smile on your face.
it will definately brighten up someone's day.

what we could have been, 12/01/2006 02:58:00 AM.

the bbq with mygirls was a big success.
who say girls couldn't manage to start a fire?
who say girls will always burn those food?
who say girls are idiots when it comes to bbq?
hmmph.
i doubt so. (:

we met up for marketing.
and proceeded to our pit to bbq.
our PROM-QUEEN started the fire.
and everyone participated in the cooking.
no LS.
no arguements.
no black faces.
only fun and laughters.

i swear mygirls rocks. (:
especially when we were all laughing at those army boys.
and singing xuan's b'day song damn loudly. (:
screaming at that mice which ran out of the bin.

laughing at manda's and sophia's yue liang dai biao wo de xin.
it was uper funny.
we all laughed till stomach cramp.

i'm looking very forward to more bbqs with mygirls.
or perhaps some girls day out.
i'm sure we will definately have lots of fun.

LOVES. <3

what we could have been, 12/01/2006 02:02:00 AM.